Rangent: YouTube Binge

Hello, hello readers!

Monday comes again like the promise of death and almost as cheerful. It’s been a weird, funk ridden weekend. I was meant to spend it with friends, but I had to work so I ended up spending it pretty much alone. I making it sound more depressing than it was, I promise.

I worked, which is always good when you’re as broke as I am. I got some reading done, the fourth book in The Hollows series is down and I’ve moved on to the fifth. Some studying was done. Most importantly, I’ve YouTubed. And having done so, I’ve decided to share my three favorite videos with you!

1. Affection – Cigarettes After Sex

I found out about this band because one of its members is the guy behind Short Story Thursdays. Now, if you don’t know what that is, SST is a weekly dispatch where you receive a short story from an often forgotten writer in history. Pretty cool stuff, if you ask me! I might start writing about them, so something to (possibly) look forward to. Anyway, they do cool ambient rock. Have a listen.

2. Unravel Gameplay Trailer

I’ve talked about video games before, most notably Firewatch. Which, by the way, came out last month! This is another game that came out recently and I’m really excited about it. You play as Yarny, a character made from a single thread that unravels as you move along. According to the website, the story unfolds entirely without words and the environment is inspired by Northern Scandinavia. It’s beautiful and somehow sad.


3. Joseph Speaks to Mary – Gage Wallace

This is an old favorite of mine. I really like slam poetry and there are certain poems I always return to like Accents by Denise Frohman and The Period Poem by Dominique Christina. And this one. This poem where Joseph speaks to Mary and promises all he is and all he has. Definitely worth a watch.


That’s it for today, readers. Hope you’re having a good day!


Alphabet Soup: E is for Excitement

This segment titled Alphabet Soup: The alphabet according to someone with very little shame and a lot of time on her hands was inspired by blogger Mandy Wallace and the Writers of Kern A to Z challenge. Enjoy!

Fridays are the perfect days to be excited about things. The weekend is here. You won’t see your boss for a couple of days. You probably won’t see your pants either. Fridays are good people. In honor of Friday, here are five things I’ve been excited about this week.

E is for Excitement

1. Eurotrip

As the days go by, my trip draws ever nearer and the excitement mounts. This is going to be my first time in the Uk. Also my first time in Boston, where I’m stopping for a few days to visit family. On top of that I’m going to visit a bunch of friends I haven’t seen in a while. Plus, really, who doesn’t love to travel?! I love waking up really early in the morning and heading out to a nearly empty airport. It’s usually cold, so you snuggle into your jacket with a good book. Occasionally looking up to watch the planes go by as you wait for your flight to be called.

2. New York

This is also trip related, but it’s an add-on so I’m counting it as my second point. This week I decided to mosey on down to New York City for two days before returning home. I honestly couldn’t help myself, with it being so close. Adding to the excitement are the people I’ll be meeting up with in New York. And, really, the most important thing of all…A VISIT TO THE STRAND! The Strand is a book store in NYC that boasts a whopping 18 miles of books within it’s cramped, yet bountiful shelves. If you’re planning a trip to NYC and you enjoy books, The Strand is definitely a must visit. Also, Magnolia Bakery. Because sugar.

3. Oscar’s Hotel

So, Oscar’s Hotel is a short movie written and directed by PJ Liguori. The movie takes place in Oscar’s Hotel, which caters to a host of mystical creatures from all over the universe. The movie is visually captivating and it’s no surprise that it got turned into a series which just came out! I’m really excited to watch it because it features YouTubers like Grace Helbig, Mamrie Hart, and Hannah Hart. The cast is full of recognizable names though! Here’s a trailer so you see what I mean.

4. Negative results

Negative results are rarely ever good, unless we’re talking about STD tests (and pregnancy, but let’s not even). A few weeks ago I got tested for a few things, this week I got my results back. All negative. Which is quite positive, in my book. So, you know, much excitement over the continued health of my sex life.

5. Halloween

It’s officially October. Halloween approaches! I love Halloween probably as much as I love Christmas, which is an unhealthy amount. I love rewatching bad, “scary” movies and baking treats for friends. This year I’m spending Halloween in Scotland, there’s been talk of pumpkin carving and ghost tours. I can’t wait. You guys have no idea how excited I am for this!

There you go, five things I’m excited about this week. Of course, there’s something that I’m always excited about and that’s you! This is going to sound immensely cheesy (enough to feed a village of mice), but I’m constantly excited about you guys. I like sharing my reading experiences with you, along with whatever weird things are happening in my life. I’m excited to continue writing and developing this blog into something that you can all enjoy week after week.

Are you guys particularly excited about anything this week? Is anything exciting coming up? Let me know in the comments below.

Stay beautiful, readers. Until next time!

Rangent: On Censorhip, Comedy, and Fat Shaming

A couple of hours ago, I was scrolling through my Facebook newsfeed as you do when you’re procrastinating. And I ran into a Buzzfeed article, about a YouTube video that’s been making the rounds. A few days ago, comedian Nicole Arbour posted a video called “Dear Fat People”, where she attempts to make fat people realize that their habits are making them sick and will only lead them into a premature death. She drops that “truth bomb” in the hopes that people will be motivated to change their lives. The video was censored and her account was removed, only to be reinstated later, presumably because she hadn’t actually broken any rules. Arbour stands firmly behind the fact that the video was meant to be satirical and that the purpose behind it was concern for those viewing it.

I don’t think her video should’ve been censored. She has a right to her opinion and her particular brand of comedy, which people seem to appreciate. If we start censoring things left and right just because they leave a bad taste in the mouth, we run the risk of censorship becoming an acceptable method of coping.

Let’s be honest, it’s not like we’re that far from it to be setting even more precedents. Everyone views comedy differently and there is a chunk of the population who think what she said was hilarious, accurate, and inspiring.

I disagree.

I’ve been fat my entire life. I’m not entirely sure when or how, but somewhere along the way comfort food became an actual comfort for me. I remember one time, I must have been 8 or 9, a nurse told me that if I didn’t lose weight social services could take me away from my mom. Throughout the years people have told me how beautiful I’d be if I just lost some weight, how free I’d feel without all that fat anchoring me to the ground, how sick I’d be if I kept it up. All this to say, I’m not a stranger to Nicole Arbour’s kind of concern.

The thing is though, that concern only serves to remind you of everything you feel is wrong with you. There isn’t a fat person who hasn’t felt the shame of feeling trapped inside a body everyone goes out of their way to tell you is disproportionate. I’ve felt self conscious about my thighs in shorts and my stomach stretching my shirts for as long as I can remember. I’ve learned the tips and the tricks to camouflage, to hide, to make people think that there is less of you than there actually is. In the end though, you start to believe there is less of you, less to love, less to value.

It has taken me years to see beauty when I look in the mirror. To see someone who might be desirable. To look, really look, at myself and not feel ashamed at the stretch marks, at my arms that are bigger than some girls thighs. To stop hiding long enough to see how great my ass looks in a well fitted pair of jeans. How kickass I can look in knee high boots, draped in jewelry and sporting a crop top. To realize that I can be flexible and strong and fabulously fierce. I guess what I’m trying to say is…

Fuck You, Nicole Arbour.

Fuck you for painting over your prejudice and your cruelty with shades of health and concern. There are a whole bunch of reasons to lose weight, but none of them include being disgusting. It’s not that people can’t handle how much “truth” there is in your jokes, it’s that people can’t handle the amount of cruelty a person who claims to be smart is unaware of.

Depression and self loathing don’t understand comedy.

Concern never feels like shame, it never feels like making you want to crawl out of your skin. Concern feels like love and understanding. There were so many ways of starting a conversation, so many beautiful and thoughtful ways. So many ways to use your influence to truly make a change. The way Grace Helbig and Whitney Way Thore chose to do. Instead you decided to put down those you sought to help and made jokes at their expense making yourself into the victim.

I’m not sure how many people will read this or how many people will care. However, if you’re reading know this. In the end, you’re the only person who can determine your value. I hope you decide you’re worth a thousand times your weight in gold. Worth more than numbers on a scale. Being fat should not keep you from believing in and loving yourself. It shouldn’t keep you from laughing at the things you do wrong, from feeling beautiful and attractive. I promise you can do anything. I also promise it will be hard, but that’s because everything in life is. You should wear what you want and say what you feel and act in the way that makes you the happiest.

After all…

Stay beautiful, readers. Until next time.

In the Break Room: SLIP by Phillip Chbeeb & Renee Kester

Hello everyone! I hope you’ve all had a good start to your weekend. I’m feeling a bit under the weather, maybe something to do with getting rained on yesterday. So, I’m taking a little break from writing today. Instead of my usual post, I decided to share with you the video below. The piece is called SLIP and it’s one of the most powerful pieces of dancing I’ve seen in a long time. It makes me want to hold on and never let go, to never let it slip through my fingers although I’m not quite sure what “it” is. There’s a fluidity to their movement that transports me somewhere else, a small pocket of longing. It’s truly worth a watch.

Happy weekend, readers.